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希望越大，



失望越大。

Be.

I am nothing.
I am everything,
whatever you want me to be.

But the question is,
what do you want me to be?

Reminiscence.

I passed by my ex-school when i was coming back from SMSA just now. Students were fooling and playing around outside their classrooms, walking and running around rushing for classes, chatting and gossiping with friends at the balcony. And i realized that i somehow missed the times in CHMS.

The morning greetings when i walked into class,
the noise the bunch of guys made during lessons,
the quiet, whispery chit chats we had when teachers were teaching,
the same sleepy faces we had when some boring lessons were going on,
the ringing of bells which somehow energised us,
the rushing to canteen for food when recesses came,
the rajin-ness of everyone during exam time,
the haih-ing and yay-ing when results were out,
the cheerings of students when holidays came...

It would be a 1000-words essay if i am to mention all of them.

Things were kind of different in SMSA. There's no noise when the lessons were going on; a sudden drop of bottle to the ground will wakes everyone from their dreams (if they're dreaming that is). Exams there are like racing cars, u need to be as fast as u can, unless u plan to fail your papers. Despite those, there're still ,of course, something good studying in SMSA.

However, the thing i miss most is the people in my class. Not that all of them are gone, in fact, most of them are in SMSA, but there're still some studying elsewhere (well, Bandar isn't really that far though). It seemed that i somehow lost contact with them(those in Bandar). It had been ages since i hanged out with them. And yeah, i miss them. Hope to hang out with you guys soon. =)

Point of view.

Popularity

Fame

Affections



Things one likes.

To be popular, to get fame, to have affections,
one enjoys the feeling, enjoys getting attention from everyone.

Some get attention automatically due to physical appearance or personality,
however, for some who don't and they want it,
they find ways to get it.

One acts, pretends, follows.

They act like those who always get attentions.
They pretend like they are interested in what others are doing.
They follow the trends which they don't truly like.

For some, they succeed,
and got all the attentions they wanted.

People hang around them, gossiping with them.
Yet, they are not being themselves around these people.
They fret that people would walk away if their true selves are shown.
Thus, they continue faking.

Albeit they have got many friends around them,
there's none that they can truly talk to.

Then, they feel empty.

For some, they failed,
and annoyed people with what they did,
which made people dislike them more.

Then, they feel lonely.



Hence, there's no point faking yourself to make people like you.


People like you for who you are,
not for who you pretend to be.





p/s: 朋友不需要多，一两个知己就已足够.

Slack.

I've been slacking ever since holidays started and I am still slacking when holidays ended. From time to time, I've got the urge to do something, but ended up getting distracted, and saying that, 'Oh well, I'll do it tomorrow.' And so, those things left undone.

During the holidays, honestly, I didn't know what I actually did (well, I know I slept a lot). I've been slacking here and there and poof, the holidays are gone. 3 weeks holidays seemed like 1 week holiday. Pathetic, isn't it?

Slacked for exactly one month since holidays started, and that's enough. I need to start doing things now. I need to finish things which are to be finished on that day itself. NO more slacking!